I was dancing with her shadow... #4

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I always had feelings for Mayuri since my school days, but never had an opportunity to express in front of her. But then I was very sure that she didn't had feelings for me, so I preferred to be silent lover of her. I shared this with Sameera as she knew me much better than the remaining ones. Well, she stopped talking to me after that slap incident a month ago at Eat Street. I don't know what was Raj up to and what happened to his love story. I locked up myself from the outside world and also from my lovable friends.

Lucky, Uma, Rachana, Raj and Sameera tried to talk to me many a times in this one month but I just walked away from them. I didn't know why was I behaving like that, I was literally falling into some kinda rut, to stay alone and suffer. I was hating this, but I didn't know how to shatter this stupid feeling of mine which was killing me. Even mom was
worried with my weird behavior, she tried asking me what was wrong with me, but I just used to walk inside my room and lock myself inside.

It was really difficult to stop thinking of Mayuri. Whenever someone used to talk about her I used to get goosebumps, used to feel uncomfortable because I always wanted her to be mine. I don't know how could I stop thinking of her, stop getting emotional when I see her talking to other guys. I experienced all these when Raj said he was in love with Mayuri. Sameera always told me that if she is yours then come what may she will be yours at any cost.

Next day When I walked into my cabin I saw a letter on my desk, an invitation as a project manager at Bangalore branch, as that branch's project manager was going to have a baby next month. I readily accepted that to see some change in me thinking that this could pull me out of my depression. I flew to b'lore on Sunday without informing any of my friends.

to be continued...

L I F E

When I opened my eyes for the first time,
I didn't see you.
When I started taking my first breathe,
I didn't feel you.
When I made my first friend,

I didn't recognise you.

But as my needs and expectations grew up with the age,

I came to know you,

I'm afraid of you.

Now that I know you I expect you to be short and merry one...

Life in US II

Back after ages to tell about life in US of A. So, many of you know that I have left Calif. and shifted my base to Indy., if you don't, well, you know now. I miss Calif. badly, I hope to get back to Calif. after my grad.

This incident happened during my first shopping experience at a food-mart. I and my room-mates went to a food-mart to buy groceries. One guy was searching for curd in frozen food section, I found one for him and showed it to him, he says this is not curd, this is yogurt. I said it was just the plain one and not the flavored one so it must the one we are searching for. He didn't agree with me and he went to a white lady and asked where can he find curd? she was like, "find what?"

Then a desi uncle who was watching him came to his rescue and explained him that we call curd as yogurt here. And, in another incident my friend asked a cashier for a plastic cover to stuff in his books which he bought there, cashier didn't get him what was he asking. By then I got familiar with few of the words what to use and what not to use, thanks to liquor store where I worked. I went there and asked for a plastic bag, which the cashier gave with a smile.

Anyways, will tell few more things next time. As of now lifestyle and climate and also environment have slided big time for me, moving from west to east, from hotter part of the US to gonna be coldest part in the couple of months from now. And Hurricane Ike is gonna visit my place sometime next week.